It's amazing how a small word can have such a LARGE impact on a person's life.
I think reality is beginning to set in for us. Now, I know that I have not been diagnosed with cancer, but it's the same as if you find a lump in your breast... You still worry until you get the prognosis.
I know that God is in control. My heart knows that. My mind - well, I'm trying to get my mind to know that. See, my mind likes to be in control too.
I am meditating on scripture though: BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD. That means I just need to sit back & let Him have control. No matter what, He will be glorified; in the good news or the not-so-good news.