Wednesday, June 27, 2012

I am tired

I am tired.

I am tired of trying to make friends.

I am tired of trying to conform so that everybody likes me.

I am tired of having a servant's heart. I just allow myself to become a doormat because things need to get done and no one else steps up to the plate.

Of course, God shows up in those deep, dark places and speaks directly to my heart. His words rejuvenate my soul.

For my 40th birthday this year, a friend gifted me a copy of her favorite book "His Princess: Love Letters from Your King" by Sheri Rose Shepherd. I would love to say that I read it daily, but that would be the furthest thing from the truth.

Opening up this book today spoke volumes to my heart.
pg. 14 My princess you don't have to fit in 
I know you want to be accepted by others, but you were not made to fit in. You, My princess, were created to stand out....... Love, Your King & Crown Giver
What a great example of Galatians 1:10
Am I now trying to win
the approval of men,
or of God?
Or am I trying to please men?
If I were still trying to please men,
I would not be a servant of Christ.
Powerful, powerful stuff! I am supposed to stand out. Stand out for Him - the One who fearfully and wonderfully created me. What perspective!!

My servant's heart is a blessing. God calls me to serve. It's up to me to establish my boundaries. No one can be aware of my limits unless I convey them.

I needed this reminder. The reminder that I need to simply be myself. The me God made me to be. Keep my focus on Him. Let His light shine through.

Many blessings,