Sunday, March 15, 2015

And yet another new chapter

Back in November I lost my job.

I was devastated.

Recently, I applied & interviewed with a different county.

While waiting, I asked God for direction. If He wanted me to continue to pursue dispatching, then I wanted a clear sign. If it was time to move on, then I needed a clear sign.

This week I got my sign.

I looks like it's time to move on.

And I'm ok with that. I actually have a peace.

Will I miss the chaos & adrenaline of dispatching? YES!
Will I miss the camaraderie with my fellow dispatchers? YES!
Will I miss having to work weekends, nights, holidays? Eh - it's part of the job. I knew it going in, but I know that my family will be much happier.

That brings me to a crossroads. What do I do with my life now?

I honestly thought that I was going to 'retire' from dispatching. That was a final career. Maybe one day I will. But right now, where I am, that's not in my immediate future.

I had a moment of "I'm a failure"... but then I realized that I asked God for clarity and He gave me what I asked for.

Today, during worship, I gave it all over to Him. Fully laid it at His feet. I know He has great plans for me. I've been in a state of "Be Still". Now its time for action. I have options.

Do I become a substitute teacher for my local school district? Should I study to be a dental tech? What about working from home doing data entry/book keeping?

Over the next few days I'll be marinating on those options to making a choice. Whatever my choice is, I know that God had a hand in it and is leading me.

I haven't felt this free in a LONG time. It feels good.

Many blessings,

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Giveaway time!!!

I'm curious to see who actually reads my blog. So I decided to have a giveaway.

What's on the line?

Your very own copy of the recently released "Pulling Back the Shades" by Dr Juli Slattery & Dannah Gresh.

What the what? 

With the ongoing hype going on about 50 Shades of Gray, Dr. Slattery & Dannah Gresh teamed up to reveal why erotica is so appealing to women. Even to Christian women. This book gives insight to the phenomenon of the book series & movie.

What do you have to do to be entered? Simple really. Just leave a comment below. That's it. You can say hi, introduce yourself. Write a paragraph or just a simple sentence.

I will leave the contest up for 1 week. A winner will be chosen at random. The winner will have their choice of a e-book OR a hard copy of the book.

For more information about the book, visit Pulling Back the Shades.

Monday, March 2, 2015

Pardon the interruption

Have no fear. I'll get back to Allie's Rules shortly. I just needed to get a few things off of my chest.

For quite a while now, I have felt disconnected from people. I know its because I haven't done much of anything to cultivate or nurture friendships/relationships that God has placed in my life. I've been trying to be more mindful of it. Actually make an effort to seek people out. Get together. Meet for coffee/breakfast/lunch. It's a bit of a stretch for me. It's not that I don't like having friends. It's just very difficult to put myself out there. Regardless of whether we already have an established friendship of some sort. It's a fear of rejection. That eventually the person will realize how crazy I am and just want to walk away.

So, to push my limits I joined a women's study of the book of James. This way, I get out of the house, meet with other ladies AND study the Bible. I'm actually looking forward to it. Of course, it starts in 2 days. We'll see how I am when Wednesday actually gets here.

The Mayor & I joined a couple's small group. This is the 1st time in MANY years that we have simply been in a small group. It's an interesting group. We've only met a handful of times, so we're just getting to know one another. Yet I feel hopeful. I feel hopeful that we may have found people to go through life with. One of the most difficult things about losing my father was not having a support system ready & waiting.

I'm still unemployed. I'm ok with it though. I've gotten used to being a stay-at-home mom. There are days where I'm going crazy staring at my 4 walls. Then there are the days where I don't want to go back to work. At least not back to a rigid schedule. Ultimately, I want to go back to work. I'd love to get back to dispatching. God is in control.

In the meantime, I'm enjoying the time I do have with my family; cooking for them, being home when the kids get home from school. It was a blessing to be home with the family during the holidays.

I'm looking forward to what God has planned. 2014 was a crazy year. 2015 seems to be better.

Many blessings,