Wednesday, June 27, 2012

I am tired

I am tired.

I am tired of trying to make friends.

I am tired of trying to conform so that everybody likes me.

I am tired of having a servant's heart. I just allow myself to become a doormat because things need to get done and no one else steps up to the plate.

Of course, God shows up in those deep, dark places and speaks directly to my heart. His words rejuvenate my soul.

For my 40th birthday this year, a friend gifted me a copy of her favorite book "His Princess: Love Letters from Your King" by Sheri Rose Shepherd. I would love to say that I read it daily, but that would be the furthest thing from the truth.

Opening up this book today spoke volumes to my heart.
pg. 14 My princess you don't have to fit in 
I know you want to be accepted by others, but you were not made to fit in. You, My princess, were created to stand out....... Love, Your King & Crown Giver
What a great example of Galatians 1:10
Am I now trying to win
the approval of men,
or of God?
Or am I trying to please men?
If I were still trying to please men,
I would not be a servant of Christ.
Powerful, powerful stuff! I am supposed to stand out. Stand out for Him - the One who fearfully and wonderfully created me. What perspective!!

My servant's heart is a blessing. God calls me to serve. It's up to me to establish my boundaries. No one can be aware of my limits unless I convey them.

I needed this reminder. The reminder that I need to simply be myself. The me God made me to be. Keep my focus on Him. Let His light shine through.

Many blessings,


With Love said...

I think we all have those days where we're just tired and don't really feel good about ourselves. Unappreciated would be a good word. And it's okay to have those feelings.
That book is a great book!! And I'm glad you didn't let those feelings take over and instead went to God.

I guess what I'm tryin to say in all that mess of words is that we all have been there! It's what we choose to do when we get there that truly matters.


BARBIE said...

"You were not made to fit in. You were made to stand out". Yes, that is so true. We are uniquely fashioned by the hand of our creator. Desiring to be the me He created me to be as well.