Monday, March 16, 2009

So much of nothing to say

Sitting here, contemplating what I will blog about. There's SO much I want to say, but then again, so much I don't.

Tomorrow will mark the 1 year anniversary of my miscarriage. I honestly would have thought it would have been passed over without a thought. Instead, its on my mind. My child would have been 3 months old. The child who is no more. The child who never really was. I still mourn for that child; I guess I always will. I wonder, will it get easier? I love you dear Kaelin.

Life has been hectic since spring is here... well, not officially, but baseball season is upon us. Practice 3 nights a week, games & tournaments. Wow! Didn't realize what we signed up for. But Justin is having so much fun and that makes it all worthwhile.

Church is bringing upon so many changes in our life. Craig will be moving up to high school with his boys as of the summer. Chelsea will be moving up to middle school. I have decided to take a step back from a few of my 'things' and volunteer in a new way. I'll be working with 4th grade girls as a small group leader. I hope I'm ready for it.

So much chaos & turmoil surrounds us. Friends are losing jobs; a friend's child suffered a seizure. Yet, I still have the peace of God that He will see us all through these tough times. Reminds me of a song by Casting Crowns:

Praise You In This Storm(c)

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

Often, we cry out for His help during the tough times. But how amazing it would be just to continue to praise Him. Resting in the knowledge that He loves us & He is watching over us. We may not understand the 'whys' of our situation, but He does. He will see us through it.

Many blessings,

1 comment:

Stephanie said...

Thank you for posting exactly what I needed to hear tonight. I miss you girl.