Thursday, March 7, 2013

Broken not beaten

Last Thursday, I had the opportunity to go to Night of Worship at my church. They do this about 4 times a year. A wonderful opportunity to worship our Heavenly Father, pray together & have communion.

You're asking yourself - ummm... don't you do that EVERY Sunday? Well, yes. We don't celebrate communion every Sunday because it would be difficult to serve it to thousands of people each & every week. As for the music & prayer - hasn't there been a time where you're at church, worshiping and they cut to the sermon. Not saying I don't love hearing the sermon, but sometimes God just speaks to me through music. Plus, for me, its an amazing chance for me to fully let go & just bask in His love.

That's what Night of Worship is for.. for those times when you just need a little MORE worship... gather with others to pray and commune together.

As I've said before, worship is how I connect with God. Music speaks to my heart. The beat, the rhythm, the words. There was just something about this particular night, my heart was breaking. Not sure why. Things have been pretty good. Yet I could FEEL God tugging on my heart. That tightness in my chest.

We sang and tears just came to my eyes. Within seconds, the waterworks begin to flow. Tears streaming down my face. In that moment, I could FEEL the presence of God. There - speaking to me. As the tears flowed, I started to sob. You know that sob.. that "I am in pain & need help" sob. I know my poor husband was confused. I'll admit. I didn't know where it was coming from.

But there I sat...tears streaming, worshiping my Heavenly Father. In an instant, I was overtaken by this amazing sense of peace. My Heavenly Father telling me "I am here child".

A lot happened in that moment. Stuff that I am still trying to sort out in my mind. Need to put it on paper and start working it out.

It was an awesome feeling.... feeling the presence of God right there as you are feeling broken & beaten. I could do nothing but worship Him. For what He has done in my life & what He still has in store for me.

I'll leave you with a song. This one definitely speaks to my heart.

Many blessings,

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